What can I do to change the world?
This question drives me as I strive to make my existence “count” for something. I have left a blissful state to incarnate into a limited human body, a finite “Life” span. Within in this mysterious finite time I have developed all the tools of survival along with social skills, keen curiosity, psychic talents, art/expressive creativity and some math.
I have always expected I would touch masses of people with the wisdom I channel from the higher knowing. I have always “known” I was here to make an impact on my human family at large. I have had visions in which the ideas I channel turn on “many lights” all over the world, symbolic for my “mission” to assist with spiritual enlightenment on a large scale. I must admit I have ambition to succeed in my mission.
I am working on two books as well as “Free Flow” channeled message writing sessions where I usually work with Hermes or my higher self.
I daydream about how my books will succeed and the fulfillment of meeting people the words have touched. I go on to think of book tours, hotels, constant phone calls, the press and those who “handle” the talent. Contacts signed in blood. I understand the lifestyle of a “busy” author is not something I would find pleasurable. I make mental choices that I will create lecture tours for each book, no more than four months long, and then I will disappear from public view and have a life of my own, until the next book comes out, and then do it all over again. Modern communication is so easy I can be in many worlds at once, contributing and hermiting at the same time.
The more I daydream my future the more I lose touch with my bliss. I imagine all the ways in which “success” will not suit me. I am a very spiritual person who is working on balancing the material side of human life. I have no “idols” before God, such as a Rolex or any other status symbol. “It is harder for a rich man to get into heaven than a camel to pass through the eye of a needle.” You know? The tower of Babel was viewed as a symbol of idolatry, now we call them status symbols. Gold is not my god, I am mining for something more ethereal, more alchemical.
As I grow uncomfortable with my daydreams, I realize striving to “be” anything other than my true self is completely fruitless. I am infused with the wisdom that my work is about nurturing my Truest Self at all times. Goals, promotions, phone calls, media, legalities, car pools, bills, parties, social masks, and even fashion are all illusions.
I have filled my life with “expected” illusions, trained my neurochemistry to create drama in my life story which I react to emotionally. I have driven myself to “be someone”, impress my family and finally feel my suffering was worth my success.
I know now all I really need to do is to be ME. I am God being Korinne Wilson, as you are God being (Insert birth name here). I feel I must integrate this simple truth into the clockwork of my brain. I must accept and love the being I have always been and am also becoming. I must integrate the truth of Oneness. The person who real-eyes(es) Oneness can declare great success and a life mission fulfilled. All Genius springs forth from being centered in Oneness, the rest is illusion.
My Guru Sri Mamua Devi’s Guru, His Eminence Choeje Ayang Rinpoche says “This is Samsara, we must try.”
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