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Our Latest Question comes from our comment section once again.
“All of my life I have felt pulled at times to be more spiritual. It only comes in spurts. I am an Eclectic Pagan, but I feel no pull to one particular God/dess. There are times when certain ones grab me by the collar and direct me for a time to accomplish a goal (for example, I was moping around about my book that I was writing. Saraswati spoke to me in a song of Indian music I was listening to. Within 3 months, my book was done). Why can’t I stay focused on daily practice? I am 36, I have accomplished many things in my life but a sense of whole connectedness to the Gods.”
I can really relate to the feeling of being called and then grounded. When we are on a spiritual path, we must also be on the path of self-healing. The path of self-healing is another aspect that contributes to your souls evolution as a whole. What is spirituality or incarnation for, if not the evolution of your soul? Spirituality contributes to your souls growth, as well as childbearing, hard work, breakups and break downs- this life is about lessons.
To look at our “spiritual path” from the “big picture” perspective is necessary to enable us to correctly understand the “lessons” we are learning from everyday life. To see with a birds eye view what we are lacking and what is going great. Evaluate your life.
Taking into account that The Questioner communicates with non-physical divine presence in the form of a God or Goddess, adds another beautiful element to her spiritual tapestry. Communing with a “God Consciousness” is a blessed and sometimes difficult growing experience. Kali Ma or Hecate may have a lesson of death and rebirth to teach you, or Cerridwen may want you to throw your romantic partnership into her bubbling cauldron. Being picked up by the scruff of the neck and led by a divine energy does seem harsh. This particular kind of “teaching” only happens when we are unwilling to take part in our own growth process, unwilling to sacrifice some lie or false judgment that is impeding us. The Gods are good.
I found the “Voice” of my Gods softened and became more compassionate when I softened and became more compassionate. We must remember we are living in a world of mirrors especially when we are communicating with spirit. If you smile at a mirror it smiles back- if you frown at the mirror, it frowns back. Remember this quick trick while exploring the astral or inner realms.
The reason we feel the “inertia” of rising and falling, or being magickal and then being mundane- is because the magickal must be incorporated into your daily life.
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There are MANY obstacles keeping us from staying in a state of “High Vibration” or Inspiration (“in – spirit” thank you Wayne Dyer). Any annoyance can set off an agitated mind into a state of low vibration. The calm mind deals with trauma or lives daily “bullshit” with ease and confidence. So then the next trick is to CALM our minds. To restrain ourselves from participating in and contributing to the “DRAMA TRAUMA” of our friends, loved ones and ourselves.
I stepped out of the Wiccan circle, and entered the Buddhist refuge in order to calm my neurotic mind and heal or “re-program” or “de-program” my constantly repeating negative thought patterns.
Before I found the soothing energy of Buddhist mantra and yoga, I used the sharp knife of “mystical” western psychology to dissect the inner workings of my fragile emotional/psychic system. I became a “Jungian”- worshipping at the altar of mental brilliance as it perceives spiritual knowledge. You see the “Logical” brain (left hemi) can only understand mysticism, abstract concepts or jibber jabber by communing with the “Spiritual” brain (right hemi). Jung displayed the talent of making the mystical seem possible- through his logical view of the divine and how the divine manifests in the forms of “Synchronicity”, “the collective unconscious”, “the Shadow” even the “Holy Spirit”. Jung labeled and popularized these ANCIENT concepts to the chagrin of his scrutinizing peers and teacher/mentor “Ziggy” Freud.
So to share my journey I tell you I studied Jung and used his philosophy in my life, and in my brain. I then found the “self help” movement. Through books like “CoDependent No More”, “Yesterday I Cried” and “Healing the Shame the Binds You” I learned how I was programmed to think negative thoughts, and propagate negative actions through my family and society of origin. I then proceeded to heal my childhood wounds with the loving salve of Buddhism, facing my fears, becoming lovingly but blatantly honest with myself and others, dodging fights or people who wanted to bait me into a conflict, I lost my *need* for a romantic partner (but not my desire for one), I became compassionate toward those who wished me harm, I practiced loving until I got much better at it, I LET GO of people and situations that kept me in low spirits.
I kept detailed journals of my thoughts and feelings, always keeping an ear and an eye out for divine guidance. I came to a point where I could hear my guides clearly and recorded the information they imparted through clairaudience and visual symbols in my third eye. We must be diligent when we begin to receive clear communication- to decipher the symbols we receive and get at the root of the message.
For those who cannot hear their guides please purchase some sort of ORACLE- either Tarot or Runes, any divinatory tool that will answer more than “yes”, “no” questions and comes with an instruction book(let). The Oracle will give you a window into your own self, to peek at your personal situations and how you are being guided at any given time. If you do not have the time to learn an Oracle- then hire one. A skilled psychic counselor will easily identify the “issues” in your life and give you practical advice on how to proceed for the highest good of all involved. (I am for hire, occultpriestess.com.)
To sum this up- Life goes from magickal to mundane with your rate of vibration. High vibration = inspired, low vibration = depressed. Understand, during a Large Chunk of the journey, low vibration can be expected. In my observation most of us do not reach a state of “calm” until the age of thirty. Oprah says something like- ‘We are idiots in our twenties’- her sentiment being- that is when she made her most blatant mistakes, and learned many of the harsher lessons (as a reverberation of traumas in her childhood- I do not think Oprah added that point). I do not wish to put this judgment on all 20 year olds, there are always exceptions and exceptional people. Understand we must go through our shadows to see the light of truth. “Drama” and even very serious situations are manifestations of a dis-ease in our subconscious. If we cannot heal our past pain in our mind/heart or subconscious, we are destined to play out our pain on the stage of life in the form of drama and serious situations. However just like the mirror, when your drama turns to loving karma- the play gets a LOT better!
When you get the hang of your “Spiritual legs”. Once you learn to walk on the rocky boat of ups and downs, sacrifice what no longer serves your highest good, the wild sea will begin to slow. The waves will finally come to a rest and you will see the beginning of your new life without fear.
One last Tip: Try the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram as described in the book Modern Magick by Donald Michael Kriag. YouTube has dozens of videos on the “LBPR” and some even have proper pronunciation of the ritual :). When the LBRP is done on a semi regular basis, the drama in your life will begin to dissipate. The LBRP raises your vibration with the light of the Arch Angels and Sacred names of God- thus causing those who are “trapped” in the dark to avoid your light. (Metaphors) Taught as a ritual of protection, this practice will strengthen your aura and improve your “Life/StagePlay”.
~ OM ~ Sat Nam ~ Be Here Now ~
Salutations to my Guru Sri Mamua Devi and my Guru’s Guru.
Thank you so much for allowing me to share this with you. What a wonderful question! I am very pleased. Questions are most welcomed – I will explore this topic as in-depth as anyone would like, because it’s important!
~ FIN~
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