Awakening to Ghosts: the Lower Astral and the Ancestors part 1

 

This recent Teaching all started with a vision Hermes (my spirit guide) showed me.

I did not Understand the Entire Vision, nor do I still. At the time of the vision the Interpretation Was-
The OVERSOUL of Humanity (Collective Unconscious) has to Get Closer to – move toward- Our Living Consciousness.

Anyone who has “AWAKENED” has had to experience the collective soul of humanities past and present… it is NOT pretty. This phase of awakening is quite tormenting, the Gnosis of what our ancestors did can be devastating. Tapping into the OverSoul of humanity; its a bad dream- we must all wake up from.

“Ghost Consciousness” for lack of any other term…. must come closer to the Living consciousness in order for ALL/ONE to heal, or wake up from the collective nightmare we call History.

I do NOT believe this “vibrational” movement of consciousness- the living thoughts close to the thoughts of the dead…   I believe this is a Phase or Stage of the “Shift” or Awakening of Humanity, Cosmic Consciousness, Evolution.

During my most recent Kundalini awakenings (2010-2012) I found myself a lot less blissful and much more agitated. The First awakenings were filled with feelings of bliss, Divine visitations, staggering gnosis and so many amazing happenings. The later awakenings I must not have been “going up” as high vibrationally / consciousness – because my ‘radar’ was picking up lots of lower Astral Clutter.
So the Earlier Awakenings were of a higher vibration than the later awakenings.
It is true I have had my Kundalini awakenings stopped about 14 times in the past 10 years, forced medication and psyche ward confinement. I have never been allowed to Ride Out a full awakening.
I believe no matter how reality informs me of WHY I was stopped in my process, I am understanding more of the Spiritual Reason why I have been stopped in my awakening process.
I have agreed to work on many levels of consciousness, to assist in clearing out the Higher Realms- in order for the collective over soul of humanity to Heal. In Order to Clear an Over soul- one must work on all levels of The Soul… not just your own personal soul (which is your admission key to the collective) But the Collective Soul of Human Kind, something Jung would have called the Collective Unconscious.

The First Awakenings: The first Awakenings were for ME- my gnosis, my healing, my ego egg cracking and my new consciousness born. I learned about my history as a soul, my soul family, my brother and sister souls, basically a tour of heaven, philosophy, my real home, why and how I became human and so much more. Yet it pretty much all pertained to ME.

Later Awakenings: In the later awakenings I was used as a vessel by Cosmic and Shamanic beings a like. I was ‘kidnapped’, taken over, ceaselessly questioned, bullied, drained and exhausted. My free will seemed to be used like tissue paper :(.

I am only recently coming to understand what I have been through and how I have been used.

~ fin ~

Channeling Sessions: Heaven is Just UpStairs!

This session is from 2010
Channeling is consciously communicating with spirit
I post these here as way of keeping a record and possibly helping others.

I was talking with James- we got to the second chakra issues I’ve been dealing with- working on first and second charkra- vision occurs-
“Thall shall not seek out mystical experience”
So I say sky people- and a flash of white statue animated people-lots of them- lots upon lots- one throwing a kiss at me- they all seem to be saying hi in some way- showing me their numbers their masses.
I focus on the one throwing me kisses and I see Kore as I call her- my Greek self who is young- late teens, typical Grecian dress with wavy thick black hair.
She says she is me- the Higher Self is also us, we are many at once somehow, almost different states or maybe stages of consciousness.
I remember seeing Kore during the last awakening- I was let into heaven under her guise then turned into a Unicorn. Hermes was my (her) father, Aradia (she wore the symbols of Aradia) was my mother. Heaven was my parents mansion which I (she) was raised in as an immortal. My home- my parents home- the gardens are so lovely, the brocade fabrics so deep and rich. I saw very clearly that my “heaven” was just “Upstairs”- that is how close they all felt- all I had to do was flip my consciousness and boom I was upstairs at my parents house.
During the awakening – experiencing this lovely girl immortal- she was in a room and a Grandparent stopped in and said “Oh she’s playing with her Mina doll”- Implying that I was “playing human” for a while- and the Grandparents are so OLD so advanced that they see incarnating as human as a childs game.

I was LOVED beyond any measure I have experienced on the earth plane- one would say I was open to love more in that state of consciousness, than any human psyche can comprehend. Talk about feeling Rich and Famous- being loved by Immortal Light Beings made me understand the fiction of this earth plane- how love is a constant truth beyond any derision. I mean it’s just upstairs- its so close- ask permission to see the infinite, you may be able to go up stairs and meet your parents too. I think this can happen for anyone who wants it to.

The way this happened for me- Getting into Heaven, Going upstairs:
I had an omen (precursor) dream. I remember in real life it was the right around thanksgiving. In the dream I was on a road that winded around a bin, I walked the road that ended in a BEAUTIFUL old graveyard. The statues glittered in the sunlight- like heaven had taken over the graveyard. I wanted to go in- I could feel that loving energy calling to me- I wanted to find out what was within that place that made me feel so much! I saw a statue of VENUS among others. I went to walk in and a fear hit me- DO YOU KNOW WHAT IS HIDING IN THERE? The fear asked pointedly. I thought um no- and your right that is a graveyard which is usually a scary thing for us Humans. I was “TOLD” the time was not right, I could not enter the graveyard yet.

Months Later: Access Granted- The graveyard seemed to be a doorway to heaven, a ladder, a stair case all the way up to Hermes who was there beckoning me to join him “upstairs”. I had interpreted the first dream to mean I was not ready to die to my body- but now I could see- I was not ready to behold the mystery of heaven.
As I ascended up stairs through the fluorescent astral clouds- I saw a large open gate- beyond that were my spiritual Parents- Hermes/Aradia- they greeted me and I turned into a Unicorn- they game me an apple and showed me to my favorite apple tree in the extravagantly lovely fairytale like garden. Mind you I was a horse, this did seems odd to me, I had the passing thought that I would have to be a horse for all eternity. However I suppose the unicorn is a symbol for my essence.

I think I am talking to Kore exclusively- it seems she has been educated in many works I lack.

The body is not conscious in the way I think or may think of it- The body is RULED or run by the Power Chakras- a life generator – look up what a generator does. The body is like a plant as far as consciousness- it grows toward the sun, it craves comfort and love- the ego is not a part of the bio-electrical system as a whole- the ego is a separate part of consciousness that strives to satisfy the emotional system of the animal. The ego and the animal are separate(I got the words coming out automatically but I don’t know how or why and then she tells me because you are not looking at me- just like my mom in the window “scene”)
I see her holding a doll, a cowboy who’s riding a horse- the horse and the cowboy are separate- vehicle- chariot- temple kinda- body- animal- smiling horses – Now I see a white wisp descending into the cowboy- like a small ghost or piece of god, soul, spirit. Entering the cowboy (who is now Woody from Toy Story) through his eyes- I see his cornea very close up. This wisp is seen through the cornea as LIGHT- awareness, awakeness, consciousness. I see the wisp going through the eyes to a place in the mind- I see the movie theater- Pineal Glad she says- The seat of Consciousness. Once light intersects with matter consciousness is born/created. This gives you the light and energy to fuel your movie theater. This leads to “downloading” ie channeling. I see a stream of electrical currents from above coming down into through the crown to the pineal- the light show- moving picture communication- we are real.
Hermes comes in-
He says I am talking to “myself” he enjoys watching me talk to myself. The Mina doll is a past persona of yours (mina doll teddy bear). He says Kore represents the part of my consciousness that “knows”- she is a record keeper, astrologer, healer and all that you are- she prefers Greek clothing because we were together in the story in that life.
I get this feeling like you would not call her daughter – I am your daughter- where is the separation?
HE says- she is a consciousness a part of ME- not all of me. Not exactly like the Egyptian lady I once was who has a portal open. This portal is in your soul- a window- your essence speaks in many voices. He does not want me to confuse myself- He wants me to know I am ME beyond all other me’s- I have access to infinite “me’s”
In the end are these reflections of me- just like God is each one of us- we are all Gods Finger Puppets-. If you separated god in a human ego structure would he communicate with all as if he were all because he is?
God is not separate (ever)
You actually are never separate from yourselves, us the gods- we are all one for real.
You are coming across the power to replicate yourself- in once sense. You can contact your other states of being as you wish- you are understanding no limits, no boundries. We had to crack to code to get you to see/know beyond time.
So when I see Kore in her doll room- that is not me in a past incarnation?
The Kore you see is a reflection of you
This is the first time Hermes is telling me something I am seeing is not “real” in the spiritual sense. He holds up a picture of the room with Kore sitting there and he flops it so you can see it move – understanding its two dimensional. She herself was saying she is not my higher self- we are not that either one of us. I can hear Kore so easily because she is close to my vibration- because she is me. Hermes says I cannot go to her house and have tea- she’s not real like that. The closest I can come to understanding this right now is that she is a reservoir for my knowledge- a collective notion which I have personified in a form I can relate too. An Inner face- database- record keeper, but not Thoth who I suppose is the big record keeper, and Kore maybe my personal record keeper?

I am grateful that Kore and Hermes set me straight on differentiating this particular energy. It comforts me that I will be TOLD unequivocally if I am in touch with another entity or a reflection of myself. Like I said this is the first time Hermes has made that distinction- so I assume this is the first time this has happened.

So Hermes draws a mirror up to me- I see the reflection as a different room and a different me- He says as long as you understand you are talking to a reflection you may proceed.

I re greet Kore as my reflection- She greets back-
Okay now that we know where we stand- you can understand this is a way of “smuggling out” your knowing. I think this must be a game I play with myself- where is the lady in the carpet? She says The SCROLL- yes about 20 mins ago she showed me a scroll and was passing it over to me- it was parchment- rolled with two “sticks” or rods- at the end of the rods- 4 black diamonds. The scroll is old- amber colored- I feel like I can intuitively read it, but not actually read it- I see writing- like a fairy tale. IS THIS MY SCRIPT? She smiles- and I see cherry and chocolate mood colorings- You wanted to see your life without reflection- through the eyes of the ones who see- to understand your journey in the larger sense- how you would effect your people- or how you would give back- help.
She says- this is part of your life script- your astrology- your karma and your contracts. I now see my higher self wearing Buddhist orange- smiling and showing me the pastel scenery of the astral realm- she looks like the queen of heaven to me. She seems to have an artists brush and now a smock- she tells me she paints- scenes, landscapes, she paints possibilities, hope because hope is real; she paints the stars the guide me toward the light. ()+() . I see a chariot race- I am entered- she is my “guardian” in the sense of over seer adviser. Hermes does not advise, this is her role. I ask how to define her role for me, fairy god mother? Angel? She says I am you of course- in another role.
I see her say to Hermes “I think she’s finally getting it”
You deal with upstairs stuff and I deal with downstairs?
More or Less- your limited perception.
Well you know I want infinite perception- I feel as if I am being hard headed when I am just being honest. I feel my frustration. However I don’t want to spontaneously combust due to enlightenment. I accept my limited perception and I gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi Svaha am working on it.

Maybe you can address my “techno Fear”- I fear that I will stumble upon a secret so perception altering that I will never recover from it- a bad tone that echos through out infinity- I call it techno fear because I feel it keeps me from accessing the computer of cosmic consciousness as fully as I would like to. A Phobia of too much knowledge that breaks my humble mind. Pandora there is the box you forgot to open- Oh no! You see it’s like sniffing for bombs in spiritual concepts before you commit to learning them. However I am exploring spiritual/higher knowing- which by its nature is mysterious and you cannot sniff for bombs before you commit to the download. And then of course you cannot “un see” what you have seen.

Higher self explains itself
Guru Devi= Physical Lineage
HIGHER SELF REPRESENTS SOUL LINEAGE_ PERSONAL EVOLUTION LINE.
I am not Guru Devi, but I am my higher self. We are all one because we are, also because we all intersect at one point or another- we know. The individuation process is how we grow a soul- through life poetry we bloom the rose.
Funny thought- I’m not transgender, I’m trans-aged- old soul dilemma, being “old” from birth.
She says I see the props she uses and how she sets the stage for the play- so we no longer play like that. Our personal learning is experience is manifesting within, through the facility of the psyche, the mind channels the information, we are tuning the crystal to amplify your perception. I make a triangle symbols with my hands- The Tones will vibrate you into alignment with oneness from which all is revealed. Oh I see now you brought up my limited perception not only to explain that I can only see part of the meaning right now, but also for later when I can see it, and I can compare the two states of consciousness.
She says she is a conscientious gardener- you think you like playing Sims? You have no idea.
I get my simness and even my Dolls from her love perception of her work.
SHE WISHES FOR ME TO BE FULLY KNOWLEDGEABLE< TEXTURED AND UNDERSTAND HOW IT ALL WORKS AND FITS TOGETHER. (shift keeps sticking)
She is a True Educator and I feel as if she is almost my creatrix- who chose a to “grow” and Oracle Priestess Rose in her Goddess garden. Through lifetimes and in between- nurturing this soul, this seed, to bloom into a completed work.

I do feel designed, don’t we all at some level be it scientific with genetics, or mental emotional of psychology or like me scripted from spirit- the theme of being a creation is universal.

So we see our creators as Divine. For me – seeing my higher self in the astral pastel art sky- she seems divine to me. She tells me her soul was grown just as mine was- a different “time” with different methods for her level of manifestation. The closer to source you are the faster you “come back home” so to say.

I ask her if shes ever been here- and No- she was manifested on a different “level” of the cosmic game.
I see a mad an dirty cave woman ( we grow the souls in the fertile soul of the earth)- Higher self asks what is wrong with this woman?
I see she has her Kundalini turned on- I see she is wise, but- Oh she is not taking care of her animal body. And I feel the woman is a ghost- Either way you push the pendulum- all body or all sight- you are out of alignment. In your case the body must be loved- The cave woman has a puppy who she loves and cares for. The puppy is clean, fed and loved- the cave woman comes to love herself through the power and instinct of loving another. Loving the body leads to transmutation of the flesh- golden skin. The light body can inhabit the physical- it does, it’s just not lit up so to speak. As you come into alignment, through the planetary influences and your own diligent work you will release the shame that binds you- and understand the true meaning of justice. To love all as you are loved by all.

Wonder woman refers to ‘the story of my third eye’
My higher self, my gardener- soul gardener-
She emanated from the TARA energy- Tara in essence is her mother
I emanated from Her- no archetype to tie her to (Pivarte sari svhana?)
My emanation has been through the obvious life times- and countless others I cannot currently recall. My emanation has been Egyptian and Greek; those lives set many foundations for future construction/expansion. Tara is known in many solar systems- I am less known, mostly an earth fairytale, in the “publishing” business earth fairytales are not a hot market. You can rule the world and still be a geek in the universe.

I ask her about all the mindless people- the zombies- the ones who live like animal minds.
There have always been these kinds of scenarios- we grow the soul you know. The soul does not always listen to or acknowledge the inner voice- for the most part all people are capable to hearing the inner voice, it is a choice to listen to it or turn it off. Talk about auto pilot. You always listened- you had no choice- contracts are sacred and binding. You were raised to listen for the smallest sound- very sensitive to vibration. You like Orchids and Lotus because you feel you are given a rare life as well. You feel nurtured like an exotic flower- who does not yet know the meaning of it’s intense scent. Mystery of your own powers/senses/gnosis. You have always been given the gift of knowing you were different from the other flowers. You were chided and praised for it, which helps the flower to see itself. Now that you see the form of your flower- understand you are exotic, now you wish to radiate the scent yet- you wonder- what is this- I see this symbol, this form, it speaks of many moods and tones- it speaks of old ancients of wise echoes in caves to walking talking movies – the spectral show- the light bearing, coming through- How can you recon with the knowledge of what you are without knowing what you are?

Knowing what I have been- past lives; into what I have become- it is a truth I may choose to believe or disregard as psychotic fantasy.

Everyone on a truth seeking mission about the mysteries of the universe probably deals with past lives and who they used to be. I happen to have holy visions of vestal virgins- priestesses, oracles. One could say of course you would because in this life who have chosen to study spirituality. Yet at age 5 I was tied to a tree by some kids who said they were going to burn me because I was a witch- this and many other happenings “prove” my life script fully supports the possibility of past lives as a mystic. When I was too innocent or young to understand my spiritual lineage- I was reminded by those around me.
The simple statements above are enough for Western Psychiatry to deem me unstable and possibly dangerous. I have such a sense of justice, if I think I fit someone else’s description of “insane” I totally agree with them that I am insane- that is their perception and who am I to change it? I don’t have control issues- think what you want to think. My issue is being placed in a locked ward of a hospital while consuming large amounts of poisons- medication.

Just as I chose to listen to my inner voices- or spiritual guides, I may choose to remember my past and live my future based on evolution, not starting over.

Assuming I have been all these ladies; and more- I can remember and tune in. And I have.
If I lived in isolation my entire life- I would think all of these mystical experiences were 100% part of a reality; I also lived in. I could easily see and understand different realities- different states of my soul, countless incarnations… only through contact with my society am I shamed and blamed for my visions.
I wish to own my perception- own my power- no mistaking me for something I am not.
The flower represents the soul in our scenario; why is your soul different
I don’t think my soul is different
Why are you different
I was raised to be different
Being raised cannot change a carrot into a potato
It cannot?
No
So why are you different?
The seed was different, my chemical make up was different, I come from
Yes- that is it, you come from a different origin- The apple does not fall far from the tree.
I see a stream, fish jumping and a lighthouse in the distance-She shows me the light house in my head; I remember it from my last awakening. The light house is of great meaning- therefore great importance.
“A tall structure topped by a powerful light used as a beacon or signal to aid marine navigation.”
Tall structure- crown of platinum- the disco ball above my head.
“The first known lighthouse was the Pharos of Alexandria.”
“The lighthouse is a symbol of guidance through the dark waters of the unconscious or through tumultuous emotions to a safe harbor. “
There is now a Fish with a light on it’s head jumping out of the water. I see the Hierophant with his Projector eye. The word “transducer”
She asks me to understand that each part of the visions during awakening- not gods, but vision such as this last time are all pictures for meanings- lighthouse, disco ball, each story you saw- they all speak of the now- the everstate of presence, not form as in incarnation , not consciousness as in evolving entity; not just story telling- psychedelic learning activation; full and glorious participation. And it is because you are psychic- and that does make you different. This is NOT just living the archetypal myths- this is being initiated into the essence of the whole; a way of integrating with oneness- experiencing the cosmic story; gods story; heros myth just does not cover this level of awareness.

(I just remember- earlier I had a vision of when I used to dream of eyeballs- even eating them and I think mouth; oral; speaking- eyeballs- speaking truth can “open their eyes” so to speak?)

Being aware of your divinity does cover this level of awareness- you have shared visions of gods memory is one way of putting this. You saw that God had a dream one night and it was all of human history- this is not far from the truth- though through life goggles you cannot possibly understand this concept. So you call it a dream- were I am we call it an event, a happening an occurrence. We can watch your dimension- we see through the fence. The “Gods Dream” and the life script- Ramtha information was in tune with your vibration to hear the words of knowing. You become aware of your divinity in these higher states and manifest your remembrance of a place not of this earth plane.

Comments?

New Day: January 18, 2011
Factors- thoughts that seem of import lately

Inter dimensional beings versus Physical beings from another planet
Why I am rare, deals with my mission?
Apple, Black Diamonds, Seeding other worlds, helping God
Sleep Paralysis- facing the gates of death of Hades to go home at night?

Calleman: The heros journey- visions quest- crazy- that happens to me is a literal translation of the energies being broadcast. He explains the “waves” represent the path of my journey from first d to 9th d. The 6th wave= Ramtha? Ramtha said a 5000 year cycle was now over- last year around my birthday. He says Mayan Calendar- 9 levels, like in their temples, nine waves. The sixth waves represents man mind- no intuitive, overly rational- dark age. 9th waves- no filter for the human mind, he says one with God, I totally get that because I have personally experienced it, but ego still in the way, he says no ego to interrupt the flow I suppose.
BARBARA HAND CLOW said: The first level is the metal core of the earth- my third eye at one point became this sphere- reminded me of phantasm but gave way to the lighthouse or lighthouse became sphere- cannot remember. This vision series happened at Junes house. She spoke of the 8th wave or dimension as the innocence I experienced.

She (higher self or soul architect) says- Think of the 6th dimension of form, Understand what you are calling your Ego- that filters the pictures in distorted ways- is actually your imbalance with the 6th dimension.

 

~ FIN ~

Ewan McGregor singing me a Song

I just had a vision with Ewan McGregor singing me a Song I’ve never heard

He sang it slow enough for me to write it down

Think of Ewan in a blue suit like in the movie “Down with Love”

I live in Moonlight Among the Stars

It’s Always Twilight

in your arms

The sky cast the Raven Shadow upon her brow

Wonder Follows, She is Sleeping Now

Momma is weeping now

AVE AVE

Love is always on it’s way

Arriving all Times of Day in all Familiar ways

The Nightengale sings

She Remembers her Dreams

The Rocking-horse winner

Always torn to bits

(It was not my hobby it was my life)

Yet she rustles in the wind

She whispers in the Temple

She seeks Light in Shadow

She who Glows, Knows

AVE AVE

She speaks Awaken

as she weeps

Mourning for the Sunshine of Lost Heros of Lore

Awaken, Let Her See

The Light That Shines in

Me,

Thee.

We

Nightingale Sings

Missing Maiden Psyche

A Poem about the missing “Maiden” aspect of the human psyche.

Contrary to the trinity, this theory explains four parts. Jung spoke of the conscious, the unconscious, the anima/animus, the “gateways” to higher states of consciousness.

I understood the psyche as a trinity- conscious, subconscious and “super conscious” as the gateway through the third eye (pineal gland). My Anima is a mirror reflection of my ego, which reaches enlightenment along with my conscious self, the Anima being someone who “lives in my head” but not a different part of my psyche.

As a master of the Tarot I easily identified YHVH- a name for God, as the court cards of the Tarot. I understand the King is my conscious ego self, the Queen is my Animus, the Knight many would say the knight represents the “son” of God, the Maiden is my inner magickal child (fairy).

This poem was written while channeling.

I’ve got a royal family in my head

The king of the Y- the father of time

The Queen of the H- the mother of the line

The Knight of the V- the brother to see

The Princess of the H- The young feminine psyche

Together my psyche spells YHVH

Father mother son daughter

The four parts of my mind

I have been living in a trinity

Incomplete, unknown to me

I found there is more than just the three

I have rescued the maiden from obscurity

Giving her life through word and deed

Making her conscious, breathing her back to reality,

Weaving her story through me,

Three times three so mote it be

Arise Maiden of the psyche!

Walk again in the hearts of men

Inspire the Artist once more,

Abstract muse of poetic lore

Strike your blade, open the door

As Queen Kali lays waste to the old forms

The old Gods cannot weather the storm

Princess bring us fresh mythologies of astral technologies

To help us view the skew as brand new

Turning our minds to that certain hue

She is the Justice of True Blue

 

 

 

 

 

 

What can I do to change the world?

What can I do to change the world?

This question drives me as I strive to make my existence “count” for something. I have left a blissful state to incarnate into a limited human body, a finite “Life” span. Within in this mysterious finite time I have developed all the tools of survival along with social skills, keen curiosity, psychic talents, art/expressive creativity and some math.

I have always expected I would touch masses of people with the wisdom I channel from the higher knowing. I have always “known” I was here to make an impact on my human family at large. I have had visions in which the ideas I channel turn on “many lights” all over the world, symbolic for my “mission” to assist with spiritual enlightenment on a large scale. I must admit I have ambition to succeed in my mission.

I am working on two books as well as “Free Flow” channeled message writing sessions where I usually work with Hermes or my higher self.

I daydream about how my books will succeed and the fulfillment of meeting people the words have touched. I go on to think of book tours, hotels, constant phone calls, the press and those who “handle” the talent. Contacts signed in blood. I understand the lifestyle of a “busy” author is not something I would find pleasurable. I make mental choices that I will create lecture tours for each book, no more than four months long, and then I will disappear from public view and have a life of my own, until the next book comes out, and then do it all over again. Modern communication is so easy I can be in many worlds at once, contributing and hermiting at the same time.

The more I daydream my future the more I lose touch with my bliss. I imagine all the ways in which “success” will not suit me. I am a very spiritual person who is working on balancing the material side of human life. I have no “idols” before God, such as a Rolex or any other status symbol. “It is harder for a rich man to get into heaven than a camel to pass through the eye of a needle.” You know? The tower of Babel was viewed as a symbol of idolatry, now we call them status symbols. Gold is not my god, I am mining for something more ethereal, more alchemical.

As I grow uncomfortable with my daydreams, I realize striving to “be” anything other than my true self is completely fruitless. I am infused with the wisdom that my work is about nurturing my Truest Self at all times. Goals, promotions, phone calls, media, legalities, car pools, bills, parties, social masks, and even fashion are all illusions.

I have filled my life with “expected” illusions, trained my neurochemistry to create drama in my life story which I react to emotionally. I have driven myself to “be someone”, impress my family and finally feel my suffering was worth my success.

I know now all I really need to do is to be ME. I am God being Korinne Wilson, as you are God being (Insert birth name here). I feel I must integrate this simple truth into the clockwork of my brain. I must accept and love the being I have always been and am also becoming. I must integrate the truth of Oneness. The person who real-eyes(es) Oneness can declare great success and a life mission fulfilled. All Genius springs forth from being centered in Oneness, the rest is illusion.

My Guru Sri Mamua Devi’s Guru, His Eminence Choeje Ayang Rinpoche says “This is Samsara, we must try.”

http://ayangrinpoche.org/about-ayang-rinpoche/

~ FIN ~

The Tao of Psychology

The Tao of Psychology

The first illustration depicts the psychology we are born with. The negative light of the subconscious and the positive light of the conscious.

Next we have your idea of God or Creatrix energy which connects to your higher self (spiritual self). The Higher Self then “Manifests” in the form of the two “Minds”, the mind of form (conscious) and the mind of understanding (subconscious).

Between the mind of Form (conscious) and the mind of Understanding (subconscious) is a Shadow. This is “THE SHADOW”. The shadow can manifest in your life as Drama, Pain, or at it’s most basic- Fear.  The shadow is a negative reflection caused by ignorance.

The Subconscious and the Consciousness are “connected” by the Pineal gland.

The Pineal gland contains water, this water causes reflection like a mirror between the conscious and subconscious. The shadow of ignorance is over the mirror of the pineal.

The Positive and Negative forces of the mind cause friction on the shadow eventually Illuminating the shadow into right Understanding or the Balanced Tao of Psychology.

Oversimplified? Yes, call it Hermetic. The shadow is possibly responsible for the cultural concept of “Evil”.

Devil, D-Evil, D-Veil (the veil is the shadow over the Pineal).

As we consciously work on healing our psyche from past trauma and old patterns we are working out the shadow and bringing in the light. When the Mirror of the Pineal Gland is cleansed we can see straight through into the subconscious without Fear reflecting back at us. (When you smile the mirror smiles, when you frown so does the mirror)

Even with a partially cleansed shadow we can see the Anima/Animus within. In the book “Love Magick” by Laurie Cabot there is a guided meditation on how to meet your Inner Other.

Recent visions of Hermes have explained that I have a “black glass” through which to see into the darkness. I researched “A glass darkly”. I think Hermes was telling me that I had tempered the Shadow into a slick glass state from which I can perceive into the darkness without the illumination to see darkness in its truer state.

I am still discovering the wonderful world of my Animus as my vision of him has gone from Dracula to Buddha. I am allowed to Understand more my inner nature as I explore with the hermits lamp deep in the subconscious realm.

Please comment, Question and or Enlighten me~

~ FIN ~

Higher Self- Healing- Oneness

August 10, 2010

What would MHS do? What would my higher self do?
Connecting with Divinity

Imagine yourself perfected without flaws, worries or obligations.
Imagine going with in your heart and out through your crown- wrapped in golden light.
How would your speech and mannerism, your clothing, your hair, your outlook on life differ from your current reality?

As a perfected being you understand each task you undertake is a statement of your purpose and Divine will. You are harmonious with a feeling of peace and unity that is easy to imagine, yet difficult to describe. Your wisdom is beyond linear time, rules of dimensions and line, an infinite stream of knowing along with understanding connect with your mind.

Know that this being or perfected you is so easy to conjure, so easy to “imagine” because this being actually exists.

We as humans incarnate to learn lessons here on our planet. If we incarnated as our perfected selves we would not have the capacity to learn from what this limited existence has to teach. Divine wisdom would not see this life as a journey- but as a moment, a play, a script- not as “seriously” as we take it. Through our limited perception we give lust, passion and color to life- we interact with great friction in order to cause the fictional limited understanding that is our life story.

This “Higher Self” or ~perfected you~ is always guiding and helping you to experience and learn from what life has to offer. As you become skilled at learning, teaching and feeling, you advance to understand the higher parts of your consciousness.

In order to commune with your higher self you must raise your level of consciousness through raising your vibration. Remember “Groove is in the Heart”- to feel joy, laughter, enthusiasm or just a good mood is required for most that are beginning to understand. Think of something that fills you with joy, and the work will start! The consciousness that is raised is also light and depends more on discernment that judgment. Negative thoughts diminish as the light fills your mind, compassion raises in the heart as you come to understand we are all one. Try Buddhist mantra’s or listening to the 528mhz tone, if all else fails- Mozart.

Actively working on the energy centers and subtle bodies of the aura causes actual change in the bodies chemistry. Many do not take into account the bodies biological functions as they provide moods, feelings and the connection to the “pain body”. You will no longer have to wonder why you are in a bad mood for no good reason. You will be guided to change your diet to a more harmonious energy source that does not frustrate the hormones. Using vibrations and sacred tones we heal the pain body and bring the hormones into balance.

After working on raising your consciousness you will find less drama/trauma in your life. Your willingness to let go of that which no longer serves you- is KEY. Just like the wheat must be pulled from the chaff so must you allow what is spoiled to die so that it may fertilize the ground of your new perspective. Respect the death of old patterns like a warrior.
( Music Therapy on the subject of letting go: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHydngA5C4E and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XS088Opj9o0&feature=channel)

I have been learning from my higher self as she teaches me through “thought transference”- I am psychic which eases the flow of communication. Recently we have been going through “star gates” to visit other parts of my consciousness as they appear to be in past lives. The purpose of learning from the other parts of my consciousness is to bring “US” fully into the Ever Present Now. At this stage of my study I have understanding that this *coming together* is a way of manifesting fully and completely as a fully “awake” being, to understand our collective infinite nature.

As I am still incarnate in this great game of life I still have choices to make and paths to forge. I find myself asking the beauty above me what she would choose in situations that seem difficult. I find looking within for a compassionate answer is working very well, the willingness to act on the compassionate level is my challenge. My higher self always sees how I am affected and the other persons perspective- she always puts me first. As I am guided by her example I am opening my mind to self compassion.

I hope this helps someone to understand themselves and the game more clearly.
Namaste and Blessings- Rev. Korinne
http://www.occultpriestess.com

explore more:
http://moonchalice.com/emerson_oversoul.htm#sdfootnote1sym
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Over_Soul

http://www.melora.org/Who2.html

 

~ FIN ~

Channeling- Egypt, Illuminati and Masons

Channeling Session
August 2nd 2010

I tell Hermes (My spiritual guide) I want to know about the Masons.

Hermes holds up the Compass and tells me I want to know about the Egyptians.
A long time ago before freemasonry- was a large order of Neophytes.

I began having problems thinking of slaves and cast systems- Hermes assures me there was a hierarchy but a balanced one. Souls were born to souls of equal strength or merit. Those “stronger” souls ruled as the “weaker” souls learned. (Not like anything we have today.)

I was having trouble grasping the concept of a cast system based upon one person being above another- Hermes tells me this is the distorted view I have seen and experienced.
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Hermes shows me that he talks to me through a square shaped cut out in my head (a black box?) and I feel “Boxy Brain” then I hear “Listen to your heart” by Taylor Dane, then from “Boxy Brain” to “Arty-y Heart”. I feel the creative essence of the red swirl as Hermes dips his finger into the “paint” of my heart center.
The Love Light, The Neon seen in the night, the heart light is our creative pallet. The sweeter your vibration the more depth, color and expression.

These are Tools/Rules
The symbolic plane is fruitful with energies creating “newer” bond, shifting and changing chemicals, mixing archetypes and stories.

“Hunting for False Gods?” a voice comes in… interrupting.

“The way that you understand the message is the way the message understands you.”

“Listen to the wind as it calls it’s height to itself. Brushing breezes carrying tones, vibrations, notes.”

The wind is high, the vibe is high- notes call the dance.

The star in the eye is the star of creation, the twinkle in the eye, the light within, raise the heart vibration with tones and notes. “Key”

I see a Sistrum.

New Subject-

I asked about the Illuminati-
I see a hieroglyph cartouche, the top of the arc, knowledge. I feel my crown charka. I hear and feel a Tibetan bowl vibrating “Chong”. I see rippling energy as if a drop on the surface of water. My sight goes purple- this is neat- It’s like I have a purple with blue sparkle filter over my physical eyes. I am told the notes “G” “A” “C”. I see a white gold square going into a cut out of a golden square. Golden light emanating from the cut out square and the solid square fitting inside the cut out.
I see Kali Ma (as if in iconography) possibly meaning the end of the lesson.

Illuminati: Those who have gone before who come again.

Again I see the Cartouche on my head as a crown of past knowledge, a script, a map, anointed, mystery schools.

“This is your time piece, your apparatus with which to operate your reality.”

Hmmm…

“Your movie box, sistrum, key, vibrating rod, your channel. All that comes through the Emblems of your station- to be a higher being is to instruct.”

I see ruby jewels on my golden cartouche.

Remember how you loved the story of Isis and Osiris, how they taught the people about cultivation and irrigation? You are doing this again, yet this time it is with the spirit. Many masters have evolved through the Isis Osiris path- Golden Pairs.

I see an animal horn ornately decorated like a purse, filled with salt.
Your “Gifts” are your tools.

A vision began at this time.
I was taken to the far edges of our “bubble” or universe, to the limit. I saw a ring of fire at the edge of a clear sphere in space. To understand/know beyond form, the limit the formless and then to bring that understanding back through to my third plane. I see me leaving the edge, coming back through outline drawings of the Buddha, back through the demons that protect the Dharma, back to self awareness.
I see myself depicted in bright visionary art, my mind is open and my brain is exposed. The Buddha above me cracks and egg onto my brain. I think of going to the “edge” as the farmer (me) going to the chicken (universe) to collect the egg (idea).

This is not the first time I have seen a shape like this egg on my head. During my first awakening I had many visions that my third eye had changed positions (from facing front in the pineal gland) and was now looking straight up to heaven. As you can see this looks like an Egg on the head as well. (Hatching an Eye dea) (Illustrations in journal not scanned yet)

Your “Cartouche” is also an astrological calendar of events. Astrological Alignments “awaken” the “symbol” and activate its power in your life.

You are the water bearer, you came to plant seeds for harvest in your very life time- this is your ego’s identification with the hero, or wonder woman. You have always respected the representation of the divine feminine. Your understanding of this energy leads you further along the alchemical path to creation. Beyond gender or form is the real truth or understanding. You blame yourself for recognizing the sacred in the profane, you cannot help it, this is second nature. You wish they would stop misrepresenting the energy. You feel you are a prude but this is very wise- understand them and yourself. Remember ignorance is on the way to bliss.

Feel no burden or shame when you identify with greatness, allow it to be, manifest. Look at your poems- our words together (The Ultimate Duet, Spirit and You).

The Cartouche also represents a totem or alignment.

You wish to know past identities. Many Queens or Masters… this is a lack of understanding. The throne was a rightful chair for a rightful heir, no need for doubt.
Your ego identity in this life struggles with doubt- a form of ambivalence developed within you during “hermiting” lives. Your outer persona shaped by the current life is in vast contrast to your spirit- but the “best” most harmonious of your ego- true genuine interest in the mysteries, that was your creation.
This ego sense is easy to maintain along with the higher vibrations. To be in touch with ego and higher self and cosmic consciousness- All in One, All In.
(My Higher Self speaks) Korinne you and I are already one.
I ask- then how come I feel so “Egoy” sometimes?
She says- Your Human, not physically immortal. This is just a growth process, a way to bring you back into balance with me.
(Andromeda?)

I feel my higher self is guiding me, but it is me that is truly learning. She mothers, teaches, nurtures and helps with the subtle energy bodies.
She speak of herself- “I can speak through nature, intuition, instinct. You imagine Us as a collective above the heads of humans- conversing over you, like a Greek Chorus. This is not so. You are perceiving “reflections” of interaction reverberating on the levels above the third plane conversation.
I ask- So what is it when you hear something wrong, but what we think we heard makes profound sense?
She says- Over Talking, hearing the higher vibration of the interaction.

Egypt Isis Lesson:
I am asked-
Does darkness know itself?
Does Set understand, Pilot washed his hands of holy blood?
Resurrecting a King, made immortal in the underworld (subconscious)
ReAwakening from within
Merlin became a dream
Morpheus dimension
Dreamland meets reality.

Does Darkness have Gnosis?
Can Darkness feel one with All?
Can Darkness trace it’s roots back to darkness?

I see darkness as a limitation mechanism, a necessary component of friction. Set acted out of limitation, driven by a belief in his own limits, a belief in the animal/material world.

So, Set as Ego and Osiris as Enlightened man.
Ego fragments enlightenment (As Set tore apart Osiris)
Isis and Anubis (Anima and Animus) make Osiris whole (An enlightened perspective) in the sub consciousness. (A doorway a key)
Ego, to subconscious, to cosmic conscious.

To bring the enlightened king back from his role in the subconscious to the role of Enlightened human.

The Cycle of Life
Birth, ego programming, ego acting, ego understanding, rebirth, integration- resurrecting the light from within.

To understand Set you must understand the chemical processes of the body can rule you; the animal consciousness reacting chemically. (Reference to when I asked why I feel so “egoy” and higher self said this was because we are not immortal in the body- the body still rules as far as hormones and chemicals)

For those far less integrated, Spiritual Fire (like Osiris cultivated) is as “Shocking” to see as real fire. Imagine if you had never seen fire before and one day someone shows it to you- you would have a large reaction. The reaction would be based on your level of integration.

(Again we can look at the story of Christ and how he was murdered out of spiritual ignorance)

~ FIN ~

HEALING Poem

HEALING Poem from awakening 2005
I wrote this during a spiritual emergence this is about a perfect night in spirit land- this poem holds a heavy healing vibration. Enjoy! (please comment if inclined)

……………………….

So quiet, So Silent

Yes I can hear them now

I understand

I should be writing this down

I shiver, I tingle

Spirits meld and mingle

Who am I talking to now

“It’s a call from ….Ireland….”

Bridget’s fire burns bright in my sight

The voices call me from the blue

Do you know who you are talking to?

Receiving advice on a lonely night

Hermit lady insight

Mysteries to explore and ponder

Alchemical Universe

I am ….Alice…. &
I Wonder . . .

To explore the depths of the human spirit

To create waves of compassion and love

Tao of Love – Chariot of Dreams

The Fool is pure of heart

And the Dove flies free.

Move me with emotion

Meditation and devotion

I am the lotus who’s ..Tara.. is Green

Sending out Healing on a Reiki Stream

Plug in – Zone Out

Feel what LOVE is all about.

Kore:A Madiens tale (Excerpt)

Non-Fiction, Spiritual, Self-Help

A journey through the inward spiral to the Kore, a maidens tale of modern ascension.
The book that will impact your spiritual evolution. Learn how pop culture and spirituality create alchemical gold. The blending of contemporary psychology with ancient spiritual technology. Tumble down the rabbit hole and back, through the life and times of a modern Occult Priestess.

http://www.occultcommunity.com/occultpriestess/korebook.htm

Excerpt from
KORE: A Maidens Journey from Darkness to Light

“Buddha greeted me and asked if I liked my birthday present. I asked what he was referring to. He sat me down for a lovely vision.

I saw myself as a child dancing and running at the Buddhas feet. There were other children laughing and dancing with me. The Buddha said to me “You told me you wanted to be a real girl.” I saw myself begging the Buddha to make me real and felt my desire to become real just like Pinocchio. This explained to me on a deep internal level why I first chose to incarnate so long ago. He said the present he had given me was the “record player in your head.”

Sometime after this vision I heard a voice in my mind speak…

“If we can get you to believe just for one day that God is your D.J. we can change the world.”

God indeed was my D.J. For weeks I heard songs in my head as if they were in reality. Sometimes the music would get loud enough to drowned out external sounds. When you’ve got a radio in your head (Yes “Radio Head”) playing songs like “I’ve never known love like this before!” and “You’re love keeps lifting me higher than I’ve ever been lifted before.” You get a spring in your step and a big smile on your face! I felt so grateful that God was playing music for me- showing me a miracle. I felt like a miracle!”

~Fin~