July 16th 2007:
By Occult Priestess, Reverend Korinne Wilson.
I’ve been astral projecting a lot upon going to sleep. I usually float above the bed or around the room. I do usually have an awareness of the possibility of a sleep paralysis- which does hold my energy back. I also hear very real noises. Such as people walking, bumps in the night, and they sound so real. The month or possibly a bit more I have sometimes heard voices before I drift off. I call it tuning in on the psychic radio. A lot times, they are bits and pieces of conversations, monologues and emotions. Sometimes “light” outlines or translucent faces with a blue or white hue will pass over my retinas. The first time I remember consciously recognizing the blue hue outline’s was when I did a meditation and my spirit guides were shown (introduced) to me- one by one in this style. The issue is the fragility of this state, it is very easy to drop above or below this “frequency” and be asleep or awake. It is indeed a “between” state.
Now that I think about it – I bet these little astral happenings are just what I asked for. It’s like being able to the go to the helm of the ship and re write your course, it’s an interface! I should be meditating before sleep. Gee this has been trying to show itself to me- because Amy always talks of going to “Fairy” right as she’s going to sleep. Another way it was revealed to me was I suppose through the Crowley “sightings” (visions- hah). Also I feel I have been asking for it, a way to be at the helm of my own subconscious, thus my recent interest in self hypnosis, and neuroliguistics- basically how to deprogram and reprogram your own personal matrix.
In laments terms: Having conscious access to your subconscious self. I believe this can only occur when the practioner has balanced these two spheres of the brain in a way that allows them to be aware of both sides most of the time. Someone who uses their intuition and math skills for instance. This is referred to as walking between the world- as a life style, where one can combine the material and spiritual spheres of their existence. When the conscious and subconscious are working in harmony- the way will be revealed as if it were a paint brush magickally enchanted- to give you the tools to paint the picture you wish your life to be. When working on manifesting a goal you have for yourself, meditation through interactive visualization is key. A non magick user usually creates a vision in their head and “thinks” about it- really really thinks about it. Now this may indeed cause an imprint on the subconscious- like a STAMP- very harsh and forceful. Too masculine for the feminine subconscious- she prefers creativity.
When the yin and yang are in balance on a psychological level a practioner can “Art their life”. Tell your subconscious a story, entertain and delight you inner self with amazingly vivid deeply felt wonderment. Entice your subconscious with fairy tales of how life could be (never think “only if”- this is negative- always know it is already), and how life is becoming, and also how wonderful life is.
The imagination lies within the child self- although you may be a grown adult, the child self still resides within. “You must become like a child to get the keys to heaven” Bible Quote. You must access the child self in order to have full use of the imagination. It is likely, your child self went though some trauma and it may be (and usually is) necessary to heal those wounds as a way of gaining repor, and “rescuing” your inner child (See Author John Bradshaw) .
Now that I am aware of this interface, and ability that has been “unlocked” or given to me, I need to start learning how to use it. I have a good idea as I stated above- to plan out my “picture” in real waking life- and to “emote” it in interactive visualization while in that between state.
Other ways of using the between state – Calling upon Hermes and seeking his wisdom, ask for an astral trip somewhere amazing. I can talk to people’s higher or astral selves if I need to work something out. I can heal myself and others. It’s a door way – to speak with any master I have the karma to call upon for assistance.
Back to the Astral Happenings:
For instance last night I was “half out” and I heard tapping- so I forced myself awake – but there was nothing there. I went back out of my body and actually got out of my room, I can’t remember the last time this happened. I usually fall asleep or go up to another astral level. This time I found myself swimming through my row buildings, depicted much like in my Sandman poster; swimming around in a sea of energy and floating miscellaneous dream land objects. Then I felt I dropped down a level- so in my mind I thought I was at the neighbors apartment below me.
I want to give the subconscious a name and a voice. He referring to the masculine sun part of the nature or brain, and she the goddess. He was always over extended while she was just a girl in the world (NO DOUBT). The masculine thinks, plots, but uses the feminine to manipulate- hmm whoreing out our feminine side, a modern subconscious perspective. A codependent relationship of the mind!
He does, works, thinks, plans, executes… she worries, doubts, fears, manipulates with her charms. No matter what you physical gender happens to be- we live out of both sides of our nature which takes form in masculine and feminine aspects. This must be based upon the structure of our brain- left and right. Some people are overly masculine and they happen to be of female gender, and vise versa. We must examine the relationship we have with our two sides- educate ourselves with the attributes of both sides so that we can categorize them. After you have found a lot of examples- telling between the two becomes an “intuitive” (yin) process.
Now that you recognize the differences you can ascertain if and where you are out of balance. Becoming more in balance is a journey, a rite of passage, and not for the weak of spirit. If you have been living out one side of yourself for most of your life, it is not easy to change that pattern. Know that it is only a pattern, a groove you wove for yourself; it is not your fate. After reaching a certain level of awareness you can trust that fate can be outgrown, as you start to co-create your life. So after having recognized the pattern you must discover what caused you to repeat this pattern. Usually leading us back to childhood, family roles, parental issues, and so. Once you discover the moments and factors of great influence that shaped your personal perception of reality you will understand who you are on a deeper level; hacking the subconscious. Then you have taken the power and energy away from the pattern. This releases the old energy pattern; allowing the unblocked energy to manifestation through clear channels. Using this method as a meditation will empower any prayer or affirmation.
There are many spiritual ways to balance out the masculine and feminine. Buddhism has a meditative practice with a bell and a dorje.
I find what works best for men is putting them in a dress- either psychologically- or physically. It seems as if a transformation occurs when men actually don female apparel- like chemical reaction and the softness in them shows. Their are exceptions to this rule- those men need more help. I have done many “experiments” where I have the recipient dress as they would if they were female in this life. Then I take them into a meditative state- not unlike a past life regression. At the quite point I ask them to image what they would look like in this life time if they where female. See your mothers face, your fathers face, then see your female face. Once visual contact is established we then have an interface in which to communicate with this side of their nature. First usually is asked a name for repor, and it’s a question that is unthreatening for the recipient. It makes them think that communication is going to occur, opens them up to receiving the info. From there the session is about discovery. When the recipient comes out they have a new awareness of their female side. Most I worked with came to me later telling me that they communicate with their “other side” often.
Yes we have another side- masculine or feminine- the anima and animus. The is the second dimension of the ego self- the subconscious ego self. Just as we can shape and form our ego- we can shape and form our inner other. When we dream about the opposite sex, most of the time that “character” represents a form or emotion, or stage of growth of the inner self.
For example- I had been doing some conscious “awake” work on my inner male when I had a dream. In the dream I was in the shower with Marilyn Manson. He was exhausted, he had a few wounds and needed a lot of love. I felt kind of taken a back by the intensity of the situation, and his state. I began to wash him even though I felt a slight repulsion. I bathed him and kissed him and gave him the motherly love he needed. When telling a friend about the dream I said I was “Healing my inner M.M.” heh. So yes they may be wounded- it is our loving responsibility to heal them.
This is were things can start to get tricky. I at this point have no idea if this only happens to “psychic” people. I happen to be psychic so I can only write from my own experience. There is a possible confusion coming up next in your development. The family of what you are aware of may grow and you may have trouble labeling just who is who. At this point in my development my “psychic window” was open and I became aware of others.
The Spiritual Guide:
The master Guide. It was “assigned” to you before birth, and is your constant companion in this life time, and just beyond. It usually depicts itself to us as the opposite gender. Thus my spiritual guide is Male. However there are exceptions and I do not know why that is. I met my spiritual guide after seeking him. I remember when I was young I knew I was always being watched, and I talked to the unseen presences that I could feel. I also remember playing Barbie’s, basically planning out plot lines and character motivation with my spirit guides.
However as an adult- I had read “How to meet and work with spirit guides” by Ted Andrews. That book impassioned me to discover everything I could about my spirit guide. Establishing contact was very difficult and did not happen for a few years. I did meet other guides such as my fairy Isabella, and my tiger totem. I read that sometimes spirit guides will show up in aura photographs. The day came when I was to have my first aura photo and I prayed that my guides would show themselves. The picture came out with five guides, and the one above my head (the master guide) looked just like a face I used to draw when I was little. Which I can still remember drawing in second grade (actually I carved it into a desk- and I was not a destructive person- so I still remember feeling guilty for doing it). I drew out the guides I could see in the picture and tried to imagine an archetype for each. Plato is definitely one, another looks like the Charioteer in the “Handson Roberts deck”, a warrior I think but feels like an adventurer.
The Higher Self: The inner self that fits your gender… ie. “I see myself laying on a satin blanket surrounded by butterflies”- this is the doorway to the Higher Self, or Holy Guardian Angel.
Thanks for Reading! Remember, this was from 2007.
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Korinne Wilson, the Occult Priestess.