During my most recent Kundalini awakenings (2010-2012) I found myself a lot less blissful and much more agitated. The First awakenings were filled with feelings of bliss, Divine visitations, staggering gnosis and so many amazing happenings. The later awakenings I must not have been “going up” as high vibrationally / consciousness – because my ‘radar’ was picking up lots of lower Astral Clutter.
So the Earlier Awakenings were of a higher vibration than the later awakenings.
It is true I have had my Kundalini awakenings stopped about 14 times in the past 10 years, forced medication and psyche ward confinement. I have never been allowed to Ride Out a full awakening.
I believe no matter how reality informs me of WHY I was stopped in my process, I am understanding more of the Spiritual Reason why I have been stopped in my awakening process.
I have agreed to work on many levels of consciousness, to assist in clearing out the Higher Realms- in order for the collective over soul of humanity to Heal. In Order to Clear an Over soul- one must work on all levels of The Soul… not just your own personal soul (which is your admission key to the collective) But the Collective Soul of Human Kind, something Jung would have called the Collective Unconscious.
The First Awakenings: The first Awakenings were for ME- my gnosis, my healing, my ego egg cracking and my new consciousness born. I learned about my history as a soul, my soul family, my brother and sister souls, basically a tour of heaven, philosophy, my real home, why and how I became human and so much more. Yet it pretty much all pertained to ME.
Later Awakenings: In the later awakenings I was used as a vessel by Cosmic and Shamanic beings a like. I was ‘kidnapped’, taken over, ceaselessly questioned, bullied, drained and exhausted. My free will seemed to be used like tissue paper :(.
I am only recently coming to understand what I have been through and how I have been used.
This recent Teaching all started with a vision Hermes (my spirit guide) showed me.
I did not Understand the Entire Vision, nor do I still. At the time of the vision the Interpretation Was-
The OVERSOUL of Humanity (Collective Unconscious) has to Get Closer to – move toward- Our Living Consciousness.
Anyone who has “AWAKENED” has had to experience the collective soul of humanities past and present… it is NOT pretty. This phase of awakening is quite tormenting, the Gnosis of what our ancestors did can be devastating. Tapping into the OverSoul of humanity; its a bad dream- we must all wake up from.
“Ghost Consciousness” for lack of any other term…. must come closer to the Living consciousness in order for ALL/ONE to heal, or wake up from the collective nightmare we call History.
I do NOT believe this “vibrational” movement of consciousness- the living thoughts close to the thoughts of the dead… had happened before.
I believe this is a Phase or Stage of the “Shift” or Awakening of Humanity, Cosmic Consciousness, Evolution.